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hello everyone.
i'm baaaaack.
well i've pretty much always been here, but just didn't have time to get on here.
hit me up if you haven't forgotten about me.
i love you guys.
i love jason.
i love life.
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[24 Jan 2006|12:02pm] |
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ok if you are on my friends list on myspace, there's a lot of shit going on.
someone has gotten into my account and changed the password so i can't get into it. i have not been able to log into it for a long fucking time.
they're is a lot of shit being said on there about me and other people, saying that i'm depressed and i'm a bad person and that i cheated on jason.
that is not me writing all that in there.
number one: i love my life. any of you who know me, know that i'm a pretty happy girl.
number two: i like to think i'm a good person. i'm a good friend, i offer advice if you ask me for it, i'm caring, i'm nice...unless you really piss me off...am i wrong?
number three: i would never, i repeat NEVER cheat on jason. ever. he means way too much to me and i love him with all my heart. he's heard what was said about him and he KNOWS it's not true.
if anything was said to any of you that offended you, i'm sorry.
i apologize that the person who broke into my account is a stupid fucking low life piece of shit.
i swear i will find who did this and beat the living fuck out of them.
other than that...everything is dandy.
it's a gorgeous day and i'm alive.
peace.
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[05 Jan 2006|02:31pm] |
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fuck you 2005.
stupid piece of shit.
the only thing i can thank you for is jason.
new years was a blast.
hung out with friends and got fucked up.
danced the night away while everyone played records.
it was beautiful dancing with jason.
it's always beautiful when we dance.
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[22 Dec 2005|02:44pm] |
well hello.
yes. i'm alive.
yesterday i helped guide a blind man to radio shack so he could go christmas shopping.
it was the most amazing feeling in the world.
and after that, i had a fantastic day.
sometimes people underestimate how doing something so little that you really don't mind doing and is no problem to you at all can make so much of a difference to someone else.
i rolled my ankle at work yesterday and it's bruised and puffy.
but jason is taking good care of me. he's a good man and i love him.
he bought a christmas tree and decorations for our house. it actually feels like home.
my brother and sister are here for a while and i get to spend christmas with my family.
that's the best christmas wish ever.
jason got me the Love Spell kit from victoria secret.
our room smells like a love shack of yummy-ness.
everything smells like me now. our sheets, our pillows, our bathroom...everything.
awesome.
i hope everyone has a good holiday.
Merry Christmas
p.s. i know i said that i was going to post pictures of the photoshoot. i uploaded them on my xanga and i'm just way too lazy to put them in photobucket and then put them on here. so here's the link to my xanga.
http://www.xanga.com/of_a_sacrifice
enjoy.
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[23 Aug 2005|02:24pm] |
yeah my birthday was yesterday and it absolutely sucked.
thanks.
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[20 Aug 2005|12:19pm] |
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my birthday is monday and i have a photoshoot tomorrow.
i'll update with pictures in a few days.
♥
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[02 Aug 2005|10:36pm] |
my birthday is on august 22nd.
i don't want anything but mooooney.
no kidding.
♥
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[27 Jul 2005|11:55pm] |
i totally know who dies in the 6th harry potter book and i haven't even read it. hahaha.
( caaaamera whore )
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[08 Jul 2005|11:52pm] |
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attention enterprise people.
i will be in alabama for a week.
i'm arriving saturday morning and not leaving until next saturday afternoon.
so if i haven't seen you in a while, then we need to hang out before i go.
if you want to do something, then let me know.
.678.549.8717.
♥
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[01 Jul 2005|12:01am] |
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.why don't you go have a few more martinis and tell me some more about how much i suck. .then when you're done, you can slap me around again and feel good about yourself.
.if you touch me again, i'll hurt you.
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[22 Jun 2005|12:43am] |
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.God.
.my mommy.
.my daddy.
.my sister.
.my brother.
.sweet tea.
.disney world.
.my music.
.my job.
.my car.
.my home.
.my computer.
.my clothes.
.my shoes.
.cotton candy.
.funnel cakes.
.money for coffee.
.caramel.
.hair cuts.
.hair dye.
.eyeliner.
.piercings.
.tattoos.
.waffles.
.ice cream.
.disney.
.shey.
.my health.
.water.
.apples.
.salad.
.sunrises.
.sunsets.
.the beach.
.kissing in the rain.
.photography.
.shopping.
.soccer.
.robin.
.love.
.my cell phone.
.the pool.
.the sun.
.laughing.
.compliments.
.nice people.
.people who show that they love me.
.my cozy bed.
.my prom flowers from a year ago.
.sea world.
.my cat malaki.
.animals.
.my accomplishments.
.my goals.
.my ambitions.
.the ability to think.
.the ability to make decisions.
.the ability to make good judgements.
.the ability to know right from wrong.
.the ability to tell the truth.
.the ability to admit when i've been wrong.
.MY LIFE.
.this is my simple list of only a few things that make me happy.
.make a list of things you're thankful for and things that you love.
.it's worth it.
♥
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[26 May 2005|02:54am] |
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.honestly...i'm so content with life right now. .there is so much shit
that i am going through that would make the average human being go
insane. .and nobody really knows about it because i keep a smile on my
face. .i mean come on...who wants to be around a serious person all the
time? .and i'm not just saying that because i want pity or anything.
.but the awesome thing about it is...i'm happy. .i really feel like God
is with me through all of this. .He's helping me along and He's not
giving up on me. .With everything i see, i see a beautiful aspect about
it. .i can look at something completely horrible and instead of
thinking about how much it sucks, i think about how much worse off i
could be. .i figure...i may be at rock bottom, but the only direction i
can go is up right? .and i know God is going to be there for me every
step of the way and that gets me through. .He's my support and my
guidance.
.ROBIN AND I ARE GOING TO DISNEY WORLD!!!!
.and now...time for random pictures:
( pictures )
.aksdjf;lkajw;eflkja.
.<3.
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[24 Apr 2005|12:44pm] |
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.i apologize to everyone.
.i read back on what i wrote and i realized i was being a pathetic little girl...
.i'm sorry.
.i complained a lot and i realize there are other people out there who don't have it as good, but they're still trying.
.i didn't mean for this to cause some huge uproar and get a bunch of people pissed at me.
.ryan and kalena: .i'm sorry. .you guys work a hell of a lot harder than i do and i don't ever really hear you guys complaining. .i look up to guys and i really do admire you.
.to all my friends who want to help me: .thank you so much. .you guys are amazing. .if you want to send me money, then go ahead, but i'm not begging anymore. .i'm being stupid. .i took a lot for granted and i'm sorry. .you guys are the best friends anyone could have and i'm so thankful.
.thank you so much.
.<3.
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[21 Apr 2005|05:13pm] |
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.alright. .i know most of you don't ever read these things because i
barely read them unless they're really interesting. .i'm not saying
that this is really interesting or whatever, but i would at least like
you to scam through this. .here's the deal:
.i live in georgia and all i do everyday is work full time. .i'm not in
college because my scores were too low to get into the easiest school
ever. .i knew all the shit on the sat's and the act's and i had
straight a's through high-school, but i'm a horrible test taker and i'm
sure some of you can relate. .so naturally my scores fucked me over
with college. .i took a year off to work so i could save up for a car.
.i'm a waitress and i work at godfather's pizza making $3 an hour and
$6 whenever i'm doing prep. .but i only do prep for about an hour or
so, so that 6 bucks basically doesn't help anything. .i get payed on
the 1st and the 15th. .my paychecks aren't that much considering how
much i make an hour and i don't get that many hours anymore because
they're hiring more people. .i'm the only server who makes $3 an hour,
but i can't live off of that. .i have to pay my cell phone bill which
is usually $50, my car insurance which is $52, and then i have to help
pay for grocery shopping for my mom which is usually $45. .plus i have
medical bills coming out of my ass for my heart problems. .so all my
money goes towards that, so therefore i don't have time to save up for
a car. .the car i'm driving is my mom's boyfriends car and it's a piece
of SHIT. .it's a 97 cutlass supreme. .i can't drive for more than 10
minutes without it making a funny noise and me having a fear of it
exploding. .there's no ac, the cd player acts up all the time, the
battery dies everyday and i have to recharge it everyday (no sarcasm,
it's extremely true), the alternator is fucked up and the car place
wants to charge me $500 to get a new one even though they're the ones
who put a new alternator in a month and a half ago, the weather
stripping on the drivers side is coming off so when it rains i have a
huge puddle of water on the floor, the low coolant light stays on all
the time, the brake light stays on all the time, the seats are tearing
up, and the paint is chipping. .i don't want to keep spending all my
money on this car if it's just going to keep having the same problem.
.the amount of money i spend on this car would probably equal the
amount of a brand new car. .it's insane. .and everytime i try to save
up for a new car, my mom tells me i need to take the cutlass into the
shop to get it fixed...so there goes the saved money. .and i would get
another job but godfather's pizza is only 30 seconds away from where i
live so it's easy to get there without having my mind on my car
breaking down. .and there isn't anything else near me that's hiring.
.i'm moving down to my dad's house this summer and i'll work my summer
completely away to save up for a car. .i'm thinking about a honda civic
because those cars are cheap but extremely dependable. .i need a car to
get to my job and i need a car to get to school. .my parents have made
it very clear that they aren't helping me out with getting me a new
car. .my brother and my sister live with my dad and my dad is
rebuilding a fucking 65 mustang fastback for my sister and he's spent
already about $10,000 on it. .and then he says he's going to rebuild a
car for my brother, yet he won't lend any money to me at all to buy a
cheap honda civic. .my mom says she won't help me because she's
'teaching me a lesson in the new world'. .which is fucked up. .she went
and bought a fucking sequoyah with only 50 miles on it. .she spent a
shit load on that car and she tells me that if i want a new car then i
have to work for it and stop spending my money. .i'm sorry if i'm
spending my money on my bill and insurance and food for us to eat. .so
here's my plea although it might not seem very big:
.if you have any money and want to
help towards my investment in a car that won't kill me, then please
send it to me. .i don't care if it's a dollar, or a nickel, or even a
penny for that matter. .i'm getting desperate and i'm running out of
options...i can't stay in georgia for the rest of my life because i
have nothing here. .all i do is work and nothing's happening. .i want
to go to school. .i want to get a career. .but first, i want a car that
can take me there. .this whole thing may seem extremely silly and i
sound like i'm over-exaggerating, but i'm really really begging all of
you. .i know you could probably go spend your money on something else
more important...but ANY CHANGE you have could help me. .please...this
is a big deal to me and it's really important...i serioulsy am begging
you...
.if you want to send me any money or any change at all, then let me know.
...please...
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Comment here and I'll tell you something I adore about you. Then post this in your LJ, and spread the love.
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